Hi, it's been a long time since I've posted anything here. I think the last time might have been when I was preparing to tell my wife about my deep desire to introduce male chastity into our marriage.
For a little bit of background, I discovered male chastity somewhat by accident quite a long time ago. I didn't know that these chastity devices even existed, but when I saw them on the internet I know it was something I wanted to experience. I bought a CB6000s and loved it. I wore it on an off for quite some time but always in secret, I never told anyone. This got old after a while, and I became paranoid that my wife would find out by accident and that would cause issues for both of us. So I got rid of it and tried to forget the whole thing. As it turns out I couldn't forget about it, so months later I bought a Holy Trainer V2 short and fell in love with it. It felt so good. I wore it for a while and then made the decision to tell my wife because it was obvious the this was something that I couldn't just let go.
I tried to find the perfect time to tell her, but as everyone here knows, there is no perfect time, so I just came out with it one evening and showed her the device. She was a little shocked but kind of blew it off as just something weird I was into. Because she wasn't disgusted by it, I soon started pusing things...too much too soon as it turned out, and she became angry and disgusted by it. I let it go, and then sent her an email trying to explain everything to her while she was out of town on business. To her credit, she read the entire letter and then we had a talk when she got home.
When we talked, she let me know that she had no interest in being a keyholder which in her mind was me easking her to be some sort of dominatrix. That, and the fact that she found the device to be a turn-off showed me that this wasn't going to happen. Let me just say that after I had showed her the device she had taken the initiative to give me a small pink draw string bag to put these parts in, and she herself had put all the parts in the bag to make it less obvious in the nightstand drawer, all with out me knowing, so I knew there was maybe a little something there in that she didn't throw them in the garbage but instead took some care with them.
Anyway, after our talk the device went back in the pink bag and I left it there. As you can imagine, after a while (months) I started wearing it again. I did this for a while and finally realized that this isn't something that would just go away.
One evening I just came out with the fact that the device that was there in the little pink bag was something that I really wanted to start using again...or somethign to that effect. She responded with some disinterest and said something like "ok, whatever". I think that had alot to do with me not asking her to hold the key or anything, and I told her it wouldn't require any involvement on her part at all. I think that helped. Regardless, I have been wearing it to bed now ever since and she has been ok with that. I've tried not to push things so before bed I take the bag out of the nightstand and put the device on in the bathroom, then return the bag to the nightstand in full view of her...just to make sure she realizes that I am wearing it at that time.
We have been closer in bed than we have in a long time it seems, with more cuddling and holding each other to fall asleep and in the morning. The first few nights I was careful not to touch her too much with the device, but since then I have been less worried about that and have almost gone to the point of putting myself in situations where she might bump into it, like this morning while we were laying there she would reposition herself and rub into the device or hit it with a part of her body. I have to believe she felt it as she was awake at the time. She has been very loving as always, so I see this as a good sign. I'm going to see where this goes, but will remember "baby steps" and take it slow. One thing I want to mention is that she will be traveling for work on Feb 6th for a few days, so I am considering maybe giving her one of the keys to take with her, and see how she reacts. I don't want to push it so we'll see when the time comes. I will update this entry as things progress. Thanks for reading.
